TAKE A BIRD EACH EVENING AND CALL ME IN THE MORNINGIt's cold. The stars had that hard clarity of ice
last night. Late, late. Enough to see your breath
and then find yourself enchanted by seeing
your breath. There is a quality of stillness to the pines
that isn't there during hot, still summer nights.
Some kind of bird trilled in the lit darkness. I've been
reading in a scattered way. But something in the
rhythm of what I try to write is thumping at the
steel door. Little
Gothic narrative horror poems
come bubbling out, but what I think is the poems
need to be chopped in half, lengthwise. The hard pruning
of fall, a seasonal poetry. Also a time to go back:
I find
Simic less interesting than ever before
after reading the couple of
selecteds I own. (This
isn't always the conclusion I come to.) I find
Charles Wright's music consoling and luminous
with pleasure I can feel on my skin. I tend to
go back to
China Trace and then hit
The World ofThe Ten Thousand Things. I like Janet
Holmes'sGreen Tuxedo more and more. I can't penetrate
Szporluk's Empryos & Idiots. It feels leaden, predictable--
she's brought me here in other work. A fog of
depression floats over this work (not that that can't
be a good thing at times). I haven't watched a movie
in a long time, opting temporarily for sports
and night walking. The last of the moths flutter
around the street lights now. The hummingbirds
are busy doubling their weight in order to make
it to South America. Thrashers, warblers, wrens
all
floating along, heading south. The Midwest. I
wouldn't mind a year now plunked down in the middle
of the city. Everyone who enjoys the marine layer in
California raise a hand. Overcast and cool all morning.
Warm and dry and sunny by eleven a.m. or noon or even
one p.m. I am set to watch
Jules and Jim, a film I saw
when I was too young to get it. The Colts play today,
the Lions later on (both are 1 and 0). The Tigers
aren't lit from within by the same fairy dust that seemed
to
propel them last year, until it all leaked out
of the bag the first day of the World Series.
In the meantime, combinations of poems in different
configurations, trying to figure out how best
to put together the new book, a little surgery on
a number of poems. I took a walk a few days ago
and came upon a soccer game being played at a soccer
complex set out in the middle of nowhere. All
I know is when I turned out of a whispering poplar
grove there was a red-tailed hawk sitting on the
goal posts. After about sixty seconds the ball came
rolling down the field as if it had a mind of its own
and the hawk looked down at it. It opened its wings
once--quadrupling its size instantaneously--closed them,
looked at me and back at the ball, then opened
those wings again and sailed away. Birds. How would
I live without them.
Note:
Caffeine Destiny, an online magazine, has agreed
to publish five
Ashbery Erasure poems in December/January.